Decision

I am about to make a life changing decision that I know, will hurt a lot of people which I loved dearly.


I am not going to regret because I am grown up and I have to make decision for my own life. The life which I will or want to have in my future. I have to take control of my own life. Not taking control of other people's life or them taking over my life. It is NOT like that.


The decision which I will make may brings a lot of negative consequences, even to the extend that my parents will disown me. Everyone in my family will think that I'm a damn stupid fella who will leave the RM 2300 job just to pursue my studies and start to find another job which the salary will be even lower than the current one.


I just want to tell you that I want to follow my dreams, follow my heart and finally be someone whom they will be proud to have in their lives. I am not going out there to rob, to steal or to kill. I just want to do what I really wanted to do. Moreover, I am gonna finance myself through the whole journey which I have chose. Even if I were to fall, and fall, and fall again, I will GET UP and TRY again until one fine day, I achieve success.


I know that my parents are worried, care, and love me. But I just want them to know, that I am determined to follow my heart and and to start to build my own road. I will always love them no matter what. They will always be my greatest parents and my idol. Without them, I will not be here and who I am today. But I promise, I will be someone someday and you will be the first I share my happiness, my everything with.


I am really sorry daddy and mummy for hurting you. It hurts when I saw my mum cried yesterday. I know that you feel that I am rebelling because I am not listening to your advice and all and I kept doing things which hurts you. I hope that you will respect that until this very day, I am and will be firm with my decision.


I am SORRY...

A poem for my greatest parents.

Thanks,
For helping me through my darkest times,
Thanks,
For picking me up when I mess up,
Thanks,
For believing in me,
Thanks,
For giving me hope to pull through and keep on going,
Thanks,
For hugging me when I was hurt,
Thanks,
For encouraging me to do my very best,
Thanks,
And thanks once again,
For loving me and I hope will NEVER stop loving me for who I am.